Big Changes

Wow. It seems like something has gone now. I'm livin my life tho. But i got no more big plans for my future. And it's not a negative thinking. I dont want to spend my life wondering my bright damned future or even my worst nightmare while everybody's laughing cheerfully around me. Not anymore. I want to treat my life as my first and last day on earth, to be alive. So I can appreciate every second I live, and every empty breath i take.

And yes, i lost something a couple of weeks ago. It's my reason to live longer. My reason to say life is beautiful. Life isn't. It isn't.